i was made for loving You.

God is up to something and i can hardly believe i get to be a part of it. it's too good. although for a moment my limited perspective and lack of faith may have impeded my rational thoughts from dreaming so big, my heart's desire knows entirely different. deep down in my gut i feel this rushing wind and fiery flame and i begin to realize that this is way beyond me and my realm of comprehension. this is a God-sized mission and i've never been more on board for something i feel so unequipped and unqualified for, but then again maybe that's why He's calling me. the dreams, the prophecies, the years of prayer, the confirmations from wise counsel, the people He's placed in my life at this exact time, & even all the NOs along the way- they're all pointing in the same direction.
i kinda wish i knew what all of this meant- where am i going, who am i going with, when will i go? i'm not being ambiguous or mysterious on purpose. there are no 100% guarantees for safety, comfort or prosperity...but there is glory. there is falling wildly in love with Jesus and following wherever He leads. there is more adventure than we ever dared to imagine and actually living out the life we were always meant to live.
i can't play it safe anymore. i've seen too much of His radiance to stop now. i've experienced too much of His ridiculous joy and extravagant love to ever be satisfied with anything less. i am sold.
is it crazy that i believe i can make the God of the universe laugh? b/c i am so convinced. as strange as this sounds, i honestly felt like God telling me last sunday that i fill His heart with such intense joy that He genuinely belly laughs at me. He thinks i'm hilarious. whenever i think about this it makes me so happy...and i crack up, too. c'mon that is so funny. ALL my delight is in You.
this next statement might come off as somewhat self-centered but i'll share anyways b/c that is absolutely not my intention. i was on my way to the gym this evening and began to contemplate what my best qualities might be. haha. i was blasting "come as close as You want" by misty edwards and i smiled when i concluded that my best quality by far is that i love Jesus well. He consumes my heart and overwhelms me. i get lost in Jesus because when i close my eyes i see eternity with Him and nothing else matters. that is my most favorite part of me, that He made me to love Him.

claiming this passage for the journey He's calling me to :)

He said: “Listen, King Jehoshaphat and all who live in Judah and Jerusalem! This is what the Lord says to you: ‘Do not be afraid or discouraged because of this vast army. For the battle is not yours, but God’s. Tomorrow march down against them. They will be climbing up by the Pass of Ziz, and you will find them at the end of the gorge in the Desert of Jeruel. You will not have to fight this battle. Take up your positions; stand firm and see the deliverance the Lord will give you, Judah and Jerusalem. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged. Go out to face them tomorrow, and the Lord will be with you.’”

Jehoshaphat bowed down with his face to the ground, and all the people of Judah and Jerusalem fell down in worship before the Lord. Then some Levites from the Kohathites and Korahites stood up and praised the Lord, the God of Israel, with a very loud voice.

Early in the morning they left for the Desert of Tekoa. As they set out, Jehoshaphat stood and said, “Listen to me, Judah and people of Jerusalem! Have faith in the Lord your God and you will be upheld; have faith in his prophets and you will be successful.” After consulting the people, Jehoshaphat appointed men to sing to the Lord and to praise him for the splendor of his holiness as they went out at the head of the army, saying:

“Give thanks to the Lord,
    for his love endures forever.”
As they began to sing and praise, the Lord set ambushes against the men of Ammon and Moab and Mount Seir who were invading Judah, and they were defeated. The Ammonitesand Moabites rose up against the men from Mount Seir to destroy and annihilate them. After they finished slaughtering the men from Seir, they helped to destroy one another.

When the men of Judah came to the place that overlooks the desert and looked toward the vast army, they saw only dead bodies lying on the ground; no one had escaped. So Jehoshaphat and his men went to carry off their plunder, and they found among them a great amount of equipment and clothing and also articles of value—more than they could take away. There was so much plunder that it took three days to collect it. On the fourth day they assembled in the Valley of Berakah, where they praised the Lord. This is why it is called the Valley of Berakah to this day.

Then, led by Jehoshaphat, all the men of Judah and Jerusalem returned joyfully to Jerusalem, for the Lord had given them cause to rejoice over their enemies. They entered Jerusalem and went to the temple of the Lord with harps and lyres and trumpets.

The fear of God came on all the surrounding kingdoms when they heard how the Lord had fought against the enemies of Israel. And the kingdom of Jehoshaphat was at peace, for his God had given him rest on every side.

2 Chronicles 20: 15-29


take my heart
Misty Edwards

For a long time, I’ve been waiting for You
You have won my heart, and I am following
For a long time, I’ve been crying out for You
Tears make my heart soft
And I am ready for the return of the Lover

Fashioned from the very fabric of God
At the start of time, set free to decide
I will love You, ’cause You’re the One who loved me first
Just one look from Your eyes
I’m captivated by the eyes of the Lover

Take my heart, my mind and strength too
I was made for loving You
I will wait, and I’ll be faithful
I was made for loving You

Bowing low in the presence of the One
At the end of time, I’ll hear the bells chime for our wedding
It will wait no longer now
Oh how I love You
I’ll finally fall into the arms of the Lover

With all my heart
With all my soul
With all my strength
And all I know

I was made for loving You 

anything could happen.

i think i hate surprises. even just the thought of the unexpected, the unplanned, & the unforeseeable makes me kinda apprehensive. i think i'd rather stick with my tunnel vision and straight jacket that keeps me from wandering too far or dreaming too big. i think i love abiding by rules and having as few choices as possible as to avoid confusion or misdirection.  i say i think because these preferences naturally fit my type-a personality and makes me feel safe- and you know what safe means? boring.
the first twenty something years of my life were spent craving predictability. even as a young kid i reveled in planning ahead so much so that i picked my outfit for the following day and wore it to bed at night so there was no question about it in the morning. in college i finished writing 30 page papers the very first weekend the assignment was given although it wasn't due until the end of the semester. there are so many more examples, even some OCD habits that i'm still actively shaking off, but recalling all of this actually makes me really sad. i was consumed just thinking for so long that it paralyzed me. when i examine my life, i realize that the most liberating experiences were never prearranged or scheduled- the times when i thought my heart was going to beat right out of my chest, or when there were uncontrollable butterflies in my stomach, or when i laughed so hard my abs literally ached the next day. i can't pinpoint exactly when it happened, but sometime right before, during and after living in hawaii & israel, i broke out of my mold and never turned back.
one of my best friends asked me last weekend when do i feel the most alive. without having to deliberate or weigh my options i replied, "when i'm singing & worshiping." i can't explain what happens within the five senses or sufficiently elaborate with words, but when i sing i'm free. when i'm standing in His presence, it's as if everything & everyone disappears and there's just glory all around. i'm literally high. there is no agenda. no ulterior motives. no pretension. i can't help but raise my arms up and lift my head to the sky as if i'm gazing intently into heaven with my eyes closed. you see, this has nothing to do with personality or temperament because worship is not about us, it's all about Jesus. it's only in this place where we are truly transformed and set free of all the tireless and vain thinking. okay this is so exhilarating because the Lord is just downloading revelation and wisdom even as i'm typing this :)

Now the Lord is the Spirit, and where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom. And we all, who with unveiled faces contemplate the Lord’s glory, are being transformed into his image with ever-increasing glory, which comes from the Lord, who is the Spirit. 2 Corinthians 3: 17-18

so i was seriously wrong. i don't enjoy stifling structure. i don't want to have the outline of my future before i get to live it. it's a far cry from the box i used to fit myself in, but i'm beginning to be a huge fan of the unknown- full of wonder & mystery & limitless possibilities. plus, He is a lot better at all of this planning . i am nowhere near as imaginative or creative.
i actually love surprises. i love it when i believe i have things figured out, God abruptly shows up on the scene, removes my blindfold, and opens my eyes to a whole new perspective. i love that He reinforces significant people back into my life at the most perfect times to remind me of my calling and destiny. i even love it when God so faithfully and mercifully blocks my path with thorn bushes and redirects me to greener pastures.

It's always like springtime with You, making all things new
Your light is breaking through the dark
This love it is sweeter than wine
Bringing joy, bringing life
Your hope is rising like the dawn

This is what You do, this is what You do
You make me come alive

happy endings.

“I don't want to stay in the bad place, where no one believes in silver linings or love or happy endings.” 

there's a handful of people in my life who compel me to love Jesus more. they sharpen me, motivate me to run harder after God and they hold my arms up when i feel like i'm losing the battle like aaron & hur did for moses. these marvelous comrades speak life over me, call me to a higher standard and fill my heart with love and compassion. then there are others, who have stormed in and stormed right out like a revolving door, whom i wish i never met at all. i would've been better off w/o ever meeting them. i can totally relate to tiffany in silver linings playbook as she tells pat, "You know, for a while, I thought you were the best thing that ever happened to me. But now I'm starting to think you're the worst."

 i know it may sound harsh to admit but sometimes i can't help but ask God why certain people were ever allowed to be part of my life- bringing disruption, causing stress & heartache and leaving me worse off than before. they lifted me up only to leave me at a higher distance from which to fall, so it seems. fortunately, there have only been a few, but they were significant enough to make an impact and leave scars & so much offense in my heart. this is in no way to blame God or hold Him responsible for the choices i made. but especially when decisions are made prayerfully, full of wisdom and confirmation, and it still screws me over in the end, it's hard to reconcile or make sense of it. 

i haven't personally felt this way about anyone in a very long time (thank God) & i hope to keep it that way. there is no sob story that still plagues me or an ex that i need to forgive or get over. i was just reminded of this because i saw silver linings playbook last weekend & thoroughly enjoyed it. this is going to make me sound like a lunatic but i loved jennifer lawrence's character, tiffany, so much because she reminds me of myself in many ways. haha. (hm...maybe more like how i used to be). "I do this! Time after time after time! I do all this shit for other people! And then I wake up and I'm empty! I have nothing!"

she's reckless & unruly and although she's experienced tragedy & loss, she's still so quick to let herself love again. tiffany went through unbelievable pain which led to a certifiably crazy phase but it didn't stop her from taking risks, even on someone who was as broken & messed up as she was.  i wouldn't recommend this sort of behavior for anyone and i don't commend or admire those who conduct themselves in such a way. it's unstable, dangerous and immature but at the same time there's such an ironic purity and innocence about it. love like you've never been hurt- sounds awfully nice. almost impossible to do. 

the thing is, we can't fully control who we let into our lives to ensure safety and peace. if we're in constant fear or paranoia of the bad guys & attempt to screen and weed out anyone who has the slightest chance of betraying and forsaking us, we'll end up all alone. no one, even our most trusted friends and cherished family members who have the best intentions, can ever promise to never hurt us. that's life. it happens. we can't change others, our circumstances or our past but we can choose how we respond. instead of becoming so easily jaded and slipping into bitterness and despair, we can still intentionally choose to believe in love. i've always been called a "hopeless romantic" which i always hated b/c it doesn't make any sense. shouldn't it be "hopeful romantic"? we're the most hope-filled ones, against all odds and beyond all reason. 

"The only way to beat my crazy was by doing something even crazier. Thank you. I love you."

clueless but not afraid.

it's kinda funny, and still a little bit shocking, how disparately guys and girls view each other.

me: i'm an idealist

5:07 PM guy friend: Thats not being ideal

  Thats just being weird

not to say that i'm so mindful of what guys think or would dare to claim to know what goes on in that head of theirs, but i often forget that men don't typically share the same sentiments that i do. despite what my anonymous guy friend deems as "weird," i don't believe there's anything wrong or unreasonable about knowing what you want, how you want it to happen and not budging or settling for anything less- especially in life's most important decisions. quoting from clueless- Cher: "I just want to be absolutely sure! I mean, you see how picky I am about my shoes and they only go on my feet!"
although i left out the rest of the IM chat, one can probably gather that the subject matter was about relationships, specifically my relationship status and why i'm still single. somehow, wanting to marry my best friend- someone i already feel comfortable & safe with, whom i strive to effortlessly impress without being self conscious, and one who accepts me exactly the way i am, yet inspires me to grow and improve myself- is being too stubborn and unrealistic. i gotta admit though, it definitely limits my choices and further minimizes the already shallow and narrow pool.  i started to worry that maybe i was sabotaging promising opportunities and not giving myself a fair shot b/c i'm already so set on how this should play out. and you know what? that's precisely my biggest problem- i always already have everything figured out. i'm a chronic planner/organizer/controller.
one of the biggest lessons that the Lord has been continually teaching me the past couple years is just to let go, trust Him, and just chill the heck out. i feel like i blog about this topic too often. stop being so uptight and stop needing to define everything (also kindly suggested by my anonymous friend). even w/in the past couple weeks i'm discovering just how liberating and unburdening it is to die to insisting on my own way and giving it all to God. in a particular case recently, as quickly as i sincerely and fully gave up my own agenda and timeline and laid it before Him, He gave it right back in His perfect timing along with extra bonuses that i forgot i even prayed about. yeah, dying to my own will and denying myself of taking control of my life is as unpleasant as it gets. but i realized that's exactly what it means to make Jesus the Lord of my life. there's no room for 2 on His throne. it's frightening to think that i might be missing out on what the Lord has for me because i'm holding on so tight to my desires and rights.

Moses answered, “What if they do not believe me or listen to me and say, ‘The Lord did not appear to you’?”

Then the Lord said to him, “What is that in your hand?”

“A staff,” he replied.

The Lord said, “Throw it on the ground.”

Moses threw it on the ground and it became a snake, and he ran from it. Then the Lord said to him, “Reach out your hand and take it by the tail.” So Moses reached out and took hold of the snake and it turned back into a staff in his hand. “This,” said the Lord, “is so that they may believe that the Lord, the God of their fathers—the God of Abraham, the God of Isaac and the God of Jacob—has appeared to you.”

i love this passage in exodus 4. moses is protesting with God about how his inadequacies and fears disqualify him for God's mighty purposes. then He simply asks moses what he's holding onto- a staff- his identity, his future, his security. just by his own strength and imagination, i'm sure moses had a picture of what his life might look and feel like, and i honestly don't think he was losing any sleep over it- b/c he had no idea there was so much more. but as soon as moses threw down what he was holding onto so dearly, God took his ordinary staff, performed a miraculous sign with it, and gave it back to him full of power. he wasn't afraid anymore b/c he trusted God.
speaking of which, i never really understood why anyone would be afraid of God's glory. after all, isn't His glory supposed to fill us with awe and wonder of His splendor and cause us to fall on our faces in worship? what's so scary about that? yes, i know God is holy and our sinfulness can keep us from approaching Him with confidence, but there's more to this fear. it's a fear of throwing down our staff in order to take hold of His glory. it's a fear of letting go completely and trusting Him explicitly b/c we don't have a clue as to how it will turn out. i may be clueless, even weird, about many things, but i'm not going to be afraid anymore. but when i am, i know the answer- more love. SHOW ME YOUR GLORY.

There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, 1 John 4:18

I see the cloud, I step in
I want to see Your glory as Moses did
Flashes of light and rolls of thunder, 

I'm not afraid
I'm not afraid

Show me Your glory, show me Your glory, my God
Show me Your glory, show me Your glory

I'm awed by Your beauty, lost in Your eyes
I long to walk in Your presence like Jesus did
Your glory surrounds me and I'm overwhelmed

I'm not afraid
I'm not afraid

Show me Your glory, show me your glory, my God
Show me Your glory, show me Your glory

I long to look on the face of the One that I love
Long to stay in your presence, it's where I belong

Oh how we love you, Oh how we love you
Oh how we love you Jesus

confidence in His love.

the cute and spunky girl who hands me my newspaper on my way to work calls me "boo boo" or "babycakes." as trivial and silly as it sounds, these terms of endearment brighten my mornings and make me smile. multiple times throughout any given day, my parents- especially my dad, tell me how strong, wonderful and beautiful i am to the point where it would be odd if a day went by without them verbalizing how much they love and adore me. i didn't notice until just recently the extent of how much i'm affected by words of affirmation. (it's one of my top 2 love languages- http://www.5lovelanguages.com/). maybe this is a sign of deep rooted insecurities, or just human nature, but i feel validated and like i'm on top of the world when someone is consistently paying attention to me, offering up sporadic compliments or genuinely asks how i'm doing. i think my downfall comes when i come to rely on the exhortation from people more than Jesus. in short, i'm a sucker for sweet talk.
in my small group last sunday, we were discussing our calling and purpose in life. regardless of where we are in our walks with God, it's what everyone is inadvertently or very attentively searching and yearning for- the meaning of life and where i fit in. when that big question mark is answered, it liberates and launches us like nothing else has the power to do. so as i was spending some quiet time w/ the Lord on monday night, i got to thinking about my purpose and direction. my head was filled with so many questions and requests- God, am i on the right track? can you please give me some sort of confirmation? should i move? what's the next step? ugh. it was all pretty overwhelming, not to mention, confusing.
then something kinda spectacular happened that i still haven't been able to fully grasp. i got this massive revelation that the primary purpose of my life is simply to love and worship God. my main calling is to fall madly in love with Jesus and be transformed into His image from glory to glory. whoa. it's still blowing my mind and resonating in my heart as i'm typing this out. my unadulterated and uncomplicated identity is to be a worshiper and lover- beyond what i can do for Him, as if He really needs my help anyways. as conceited or self-centered as it sounds, i realized no one else sings to Him the way i do. no one shares the same inside jokes or intimate conversations that are just between us. so am i carrying out today what i was eternally made for, or am i still waiting for a sign?
what's even more amazing is that we are only able to respond to Him with love b/c He loved and chose us first.
We love because he first loved us. 1 John 4:19 
these are not just empty, fluffy words. one of the greatest struggles that i'm facing right now is that the most profound and shattering truths are watered down with familiarity. instead of such revelations unfolding and impacting my life with time, it just becomes as inconsequential as the newspaper girl calling me babycakes. what if i truly believed that i was created for extravagant love with a perfect and almighty God? how differently would i live each day if i knew deep in my soul that Jesus is enthralled by a single glance in my direction? would that be enough to validate me or will i keep searching for more? i wonder what would happen if all the other voices were silenced and there was no one around to affirm me. one thing's for sure, i'd be desperate and would do anything to hear God's voice. it feels like i'm in that place...& it's really, really hard.
i believe what makes me a good daughter is the fact that i'm fully convinced of my parents' commitment and love for me and i'm able to live in that reality. in many ways, their love justifies me and gives me confidence to boldly love them back w/o fear or worry that they will disappoint. i have zero doubts that they would do absolutely everything within their means and ability to make me happy and provide for all my desires.
i need this sort of confidence in Jesus's love.
i remember when i literally used to blush when i would think about God's love for me. it was overwhelming and too good to be true...and i believed it.
take me to that place again.

let love win

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RvSTIVzVcJU

30

i confess i can be such a brat sometimes, maybe more often than i'd like to admit. last week i caught myself talking back to my mom, retorting with some know-it-all comment, immediately regretting that i don't follow her lead by speaking more lovingly to her. i don't recall what i quipped back in passing or even what the context was, but i do remember feeling like an absolute jerk b/c the only things that ever come out of my mom's mouth are full of grace, love and wisdom. to make me feel even worse, although this obviously was not her intention, i came home a couple nights later to discover that she bought me a new coat, just because- icing on my undeserved delicious cake. whether it's due to my birth order or b/c i was a spoiled kid, or maybe the serpent and eve from the garden are to blame, but i have such a rebellious spirit. whenever anyone in authority asks me to anything or tells me what i should do, my response is automatically "no" or "maybe later." goodness, it's like reflex. the stranger thing is, i usually always end up doing it. i'm like the first son in Matthew 21-

 ²⁸ “What do you think? There was a man who had two sons. He went to the first and said, ‘Son, go and work today in the vineyard.’²⁹ “‘I will not,’ he answered, but later he changed his mind and went.

in my defense, albeit not a very good one, i'm almost always eventually obedient. in the meantime i'm reckless, i make lots of mistakes, i learn lessons the hard way and i'm stubborn. the first two weeks of the new year were largely spent in bed, unable to do anything productive b/c of the flu. i did, however, reflect a ton on what expectations and desires i have for 2013. i'm deeply grateful for the experiences in my life that brought me to exactly where i am now, but i believe a lot of the pain and heartache could have been avoided and lessened had i been compliant and agreeable from the start. oh, my wandering heart, please be tame. this is no time to mess around. there is too much at stake and more of Jesus i need to behold. i have one more week until i enter the big 3-0 and i'm actually really looking forward to shaking off all the dirt from my twenties to pursue hard after God with more clarity, passion and obedience. first let's fall in love. then we'll change the world. first things first. 

¹ I will exalt you, Lord,
    for you lifted me out of the depths
    and did not let my enemies gloat over me.
² Lord my God, I called to you for help,
    and you healed me.
³ You, Lord, brought me up from the realm of the dead;
    you spared me from going down to the pit.

⁴ Sing the praises of the Lord, you his faithful people;
    praise his holy name.
⁵ For his anger lasts only a moment,
    but his favor lasts a lifetime;
weeping may stay for the night,
    but rejoicing comes in the morning.

⁶ When I felt secure, I said,
    “I will never be shaken.”
⁷ Lord, when you favored me,
    you made my royal mountain stand firm;
but when you hid your face,
    I was dismayed.

⁸ To you, Lord, I called;
    to the Lord I cried for mercy:
⁹ “What is gained if I am silenced,
    if I go down to the pit?
Will the dust praise you?
    Will it proclaim your faithfulness?
¹⁰ Hear, Lord, and be merciful to me;
    Lord, be my help.”

¹¹ You turned my wailing into dancing;
    you removed my sackcloth and clothed me with joy,
¹² that my heart may sing your praises and not be silent.
    Lord my God, I will praise you forever.

Psalm 30

YOLO...for eternity

i know it's way overused & kinda annoying and drake wants royalties from it, but i love the acronym YOLO- you only live once. it motivates me to be more daring, run & work out more, check off adventures on my bucket list, and forgive quickly & love deeply. it reminds me that life is indeed so short and we have to take advantage of each day and opportunity b/c we never know when it will be our last. while we're young and healthy, we all believe we're invincible and nothing can hold us down. nothing can touch us. we rarely stop to realize that we don't have an unlimited number of chances to make the right choices or take risks for the things we have faith in and are passionate about.

“Show me, Lord, my life’s end
    and the number of my days;
    let me know how fleeting my life is.
⁵ You have made my days a mere handbreadth;
    the span of my years is as nothing before you.
Everyone is but a breath,
    even those who seem secure. Psalm 39: 4-5

being that i'm risk adverse and a creature of habit, i feel safe and secure with routine and familiarity. i do not respond well to change unless i'm in control of it and it's meticulously plotted out. i kinda hate this about me. although i talk a lot and always encourage others to dream big and have a vision and purpose that is beyond our wildest imaginations, i confess i'm easily pleased with so little. i get comfortable and complacent and i'm way too willing to just settle. not to give him too much credit, but i think one of the enemy's most tragic schemes is to keep us from greatness & glory by punking us to be satisfied with just enough- to the point where we don't even have an appetite for more.
last week i was chatting with a friend about how our days were going and i said something to her along the lines of, "i'm really busy today but i'm so glad b/c the day is going by so fast." oh gosh i can't believe i said that. before you know it, a lifetime will pass us by with the busyness of our elaborate schedules filled with brunches, meetings, and dates made in vain. idleness will leave its ugly consequences if passion doesn't shake and overwhelm us.
for the past several years i've been pondering eternity. the natural progression of my thoughts always leads me to examine my life- what excites and consumes my heart, what i'm investing my time in, and what compromises i am making. pretty heavy stuff. i've concluded that what i'm living for, or not living for, impacts more than just me and those i surround myself with right now. whether i like it or not, my daily actions have implications for my future generations and furthermore, my eternal outcome. ok talk about conviction.

Many are the plans in a person’s heart,
    but it is the Lord’s purpose that prevails. Proverbs 19: 21

this is either humorous, pathetic or extremely liberating and reassuring (depending on one's perspective, i guess) but nothing ever seems to go my way. (stop planning, jini). naturally i get disappointed at first but given enough time and hindsight to understand, i'm utterly relieved to rediscover that i don't hold the master plan. not even close. yeah, i make choices b/c i'm not a robot and my decisions will lead me to journey down one path or detour through another. but my ultimate destiny, the awesome and glorious calling and purpose that the Lord has on my life, is not under my control and i can't run away from it.
i'm reading through genesis and i'm discouraged by so many things- generational curses, the perpetuation of sin throughout history, the innate evil in humans, the harshness of God's wrath. but more than all of those, i love the redemption, the fulfillment of promises- however delayed or prolonged, and God's furious commitment to us that takes us out of darkness into eternity with Him. forever. and ever.

I think about the years I spent just passing through
I'd like to have the time I lost and give it back to you
But you just smile and take my hand
You've been there you understand
It's all part of a grander plan that is coming true

Every long lost dream led me to where you are
Others who broke my heart they were like Northern stars
Pointing me on my way into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you

the last time i felt this stirring in my heart and hunger for more, i ended up in hawaii and israel for 6 months. i wonder where my desires will take me this time ;)
YOLO!