the stones will cry out.

i can't imagine going through an entire day without showing or telling J how much i adore and cherish him. i think i would implode if i couldn't freely express to him, or the world for that matter, how deep and profound is my love for him. and if this is how stifled and besides myself i would feel in regards to my husband, how much more suffocating would it be if i couldn't speak about Jesus? what if J and i couldn't hold hands, close our eyes and pray for our meals in public like we typically do? what if J couldn't blast "Hosanna" on his iphone and sing along in the showered for all our neighbors to hear? would it make a difference and impact in our lives? would we carry on because no one noticed we were Christians anyways? i couldn't help but feel a piece of God's heart breaking as i read about the Egyptian Christians on ccn this morning. the article said some of them cried out "oh God" and "oh Jesus" as 21 of them were beheaded in Libya. i closed my eyes and pictured heaven and all the angels holding their breath and standing completely still, even just for a moment, as God heard their cries and wept with them. i bet they understood the passage in Luke that says, “I tell you,” he replied, “if they keep quiet, the stones will cry out.”

i realize that praying before a meal, singing worship songs in the shower or blogging aren't huge acts of sacrifice or extravagant displays of affection. but today i'm holding onto these privileges a little tighter and closer to my heart as i have the liberty to worship Jesus on my knees, as elaborately or silently as i please, and so many others do not.

vows.

My Honeybunches & love of my life!
You may not realize this but my mom and dad have been praying for you for over 31 years. Because ever since i was born i know they have been dreaming about the man who would walk into my life one day & ask to hold my hand & vow to keep my heart whole & pure for as long as i live. & that man is you! 박재휘! Congratulation! you are the fulfillment to the promise that God really does restore the years the locusts have eaten. I waited so long for you and you are so worth the wait! You are better than i ever imagined, greater than i could have dared to pray for. God writes the most epic stories & I'm forever thankful & delighted that you are chosen to be my husband. This is my favorite love story. You awaken my heart & compel me to behold Jesus more as you reveal so much of his love for me each day. I'm more beautiful & ravishing because of you. Thank you.
I cant wait for a lifetime of hearty laughs, crazy adventures and celebrating milestones with my best friend. I still cant believe that God entrusts me with this extravagant love but i know i will always treasure & cherish it. Through dark & low valleys or seasons of flourishing, my love & commitment will never fade. Whether we are in lack or abundance i will choose you everyday. This is my vow to love, serve, respect & honor you into eternity & my promise that i will do all that i can to point our lives to Jesus so we look more like him with every passing day, from glory to glory. I love you forever & ever & ever.

Jini, on this special day, in the presence of God and all these witnesses, I want to declare that you are the love of my life, my one true love, and I never imagined that I can be as happy as you make me.  Because of you I laugh, I smile, and you make lifemore enjoyable.  You somehow always manage to put a smile on my face no matter what mood I’m in.  You will always be the best part of my day and I hope that I can be that for you as well.Being up here with you today is surreal and there is still a part of me that can’t believe that I am the person that gets to marry you.  I can’t wait to start our life together and develop into the couple that God has envisioned us to be.  With all my heart, I take you as my wife, knowing and accepting your faults and strengths, as you do mine.  I promise to love and cherish you unconditionally, in good times and especially the bad.  I promise to always be faithful, honest, and have an open line of communication.  I promise to constantly contribute to our marriage so that it can get better and better.  I promise to brighten your day when you’re feeling down and put a smile on your face when you’re feeling sad.  I promise to always be respectful of your feelings and never put you down.  I promise to grow with you mentally and spiritually.  I promise to always support you and stand by your side, and I want you to know that there is nothing that I won’t do for you for the rest of our lives.  I promise to do my best to be worthy of your love.  Jini, I want to thank you for the sweat, blood, and tears that you put into our relationship.  Thank you for loving me despite all my faults.  Most importantly, thank you for marrying me.